"happiness in life is predominantly sought in the enjoyment of beauty, wherever beauty presents itself to our senses and our judgement...the enjoyment of beauty has a peculiar, mildly intoxicating quality of feeling.  beauty has no obvious use; nor is there any clear cultural necessity for it.  Yet civilization could not do without it."

                                    -sigmund freud

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i found that pretty interesting.  beauty has no utility in life.  it's not a necessity to our existence, still we crave, admire, and are inspired by it to the greatest degree.  why?  hmmmmm.... something to think about...

anyways, it seems like i've developed a spring break countdown in the back of my brain.  i've had all these essays and midterms (and still more to come) but it doesn't seem to matter cause i've been gauging my life in terms of how close or how far spring break is.  so as of now, the countdown is at 8 days.  and then i'll be travelling to the dominican republic

i'm pretty excited, and who wouldn't be, but i've always felt really undeserving.  it seems like there are so many people who are more qualified, more spiritually sound, and more able than me that could have gotten my spot on that plane (not to mention, i don't even speak a lick of spanish).  either way, i feel lucky and want to make the most of it.  using all my resources and all my energy, i want this to be something i'll always look back on in a positive manner.

hehe. some randomness for you guys.  off dj format & jurassic 5's music video..awesome. 

ehh, that's enough for now.  i've got things on my mind, but not stuff i necessarily want to broadcast to the xanga community so to speak.. hahaa.

listening to.....

the mars volta - the widow

crapola, this song rocks the house like no other.  these guys seriously have no musical inhibitions whatsoever.  their delivery is so honest and energized that it just rules in the most righteous manner.  not to mention, the vocals are out of this world to an almost holy degree.

hmmm, should i revive this??  ok....

so it's been a pretty long xanga hiatus for me.. but i guess we can give this thing another round..  let's see how long this one lasts...

well it's second semester of my sophomore year of college now.  it sounds weird if you translate it as my 4th semester of school.  i've been in college for FOUR semesters now, makes me feel old.. hahaa.  speaking of which, i'm turning 20 soon.  that's 2 DECADES!!  hahaa, that sounds even weirder.  i'm gonna be 2 decades old..

anyways, i've been feeling like i'm in limbo for a while.  i just want to graduate and start my advertising career.  i'm sick of learning american history, or religion, or humanities.  i feel like i'm still in high school, taking classes that have little or no relevance to my future.  i'm scared of becoming dangerously apatethic towards my academics.  i just want to study material i'm passionate about.  i've already studied the war of 1812 plenty of times, i want to move on.  oh well, that's what i get for going to liberal arts school.......

i'm gonna keep this one short since i'm just starting to recondition myself for this xanga business.. hahaa.

so yesterday was valentine's day.....

listening to...

handsome boy modeling school - i've been thinking (feat. cat power)

leaving for pepperdine tomorrow.  tomorrooooowwwww.

summer's been good to me.  did the usual.  spent time w/the family.  caught up with highschool friends.  did stuff to the car.   slept in alot.  but now it's time to for the face-paced malibu lifestyle again.  somebody told me a long time ago that college is composed of mainly 3 things.  study, sleep, and play.  but you can only choose 2...........  how true....

anyways, it's late and i still have some packing to do.

currently playing:  thievery corporation - international flight

malibuuuu, i'll come back sooooooon

hmmm.. so it hit me yesterday while i was trying to sleep that i've got roughly 20 moons before i head out for california again.  it's sooner than i thought it was. in a sense i wish i had more time for family/friends/boredom, but at the same time i'm ready to go back to malibu and take up the fast-paced socal lifestyle again.  lol.  but honestly, i wish i could alternate between malibu and oregon on a week-to-week basis cause i love them both equally but oddly enough i hate staying in either for too long.  it's like they're both extremes and i need a fair balance of both.  oh well, you know what the stones say, "you can't always get what you want."

lol, it was weird.  i, for some reason felt like being pensive last night cause i couldn't fall asleep.  i got to thinking, i wonder what exactly is my future wife doing at this exact moment?  what's she like.  what's she up to right now?  is she hanging out with friends?  is she sleepy?  is she hungry?  i hope she's having a good day so far..  hmmmm...

anyways, i just got back from black butte with the family.  at the moment, i'm a little family-vacation'ed out.  but it was still loads of fun.  hey, guess what.  i'm hungryyy.  i'm going to stuff my face now..

now playing: cursive - some red handed sleight of hand

man, these guys are one of the rockingest groups i know.  their riffs are so.. munching.  plus, this song has some pretty cool string tremelo parts that mesh in a weird way with the chunking guitars.  check it out yo.

oh-em-gee... this thing rocks.  hahahahaaa

haven't updated for a while. been kinda busy lately.  i had my surgery two days ago.  things are going well.  i was kinda nervous, but it wasn't bad at all.  the worst part was having to get an iv.  i hate those things.  they itch like no other.  but other than that it was fine.  they gassed me, and gave me numbing shots around the eye and made an incision above my pupil and inserted the new lens.  it took all but 30 minutes.

so like i said, summer's going well.  me and some buddies are going to black butte on monday, so that should be fun.  sorry this one's short, but i gotta run.

currently playing - candy butchers - what to do with michael